Spirituality Apr 10, 2015 1 Comment
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“We were buried therefore with him by baptism into death, in order that, just as Christ was raised from the dead by the glory of the Father, we too might walk in newness of life.”  ~ Romans 6:4 (ESV)

This passage struck me boldly as I toiled in my garden, uncovering the emerging growth from this winter’s dormancy. In an attempt to pull a particularly deep rooted weed, I brushed the wound on my breast from a recent biopsy, reminding me of the prodding and poking that left me with a sore scar.  For what? I huffed. The pathology results read:
Calcifications due to fibrocystic changes in the breasts. Benign. 
In other words, my cells are simply responding to my natural hormonal cycle, increasing and changing, becoming something different, but not harmful.
After the relief of receiving a “benign” report, strangely, I began to think how unpalatable and emotionally taxing the whole ordeal was. Before the biopsy, I asked the doctor if he really thought I needed to undergo a BIOPSY? What did he see in my images that made this so urgent? He couldn’t say exactly, but said he prefers a biopsy to the ‘wait and see’ method. He could not convince me that I was in imminent danger, but suggested the biopsy so we would “know for sure.” Know.
This Lenten season felt like a death for me. A wandering in the wilderness, a series of uncertainties mounted. Yet, this scar will forever be a reminder that Jesus has risen, and so have I. Just as Jesus was made anew but with the scars to show himself, so was I, with my scar to show myself.Then Easter morning, three days after receiving the results, while gardening, the annoyance left me like a flash of (bad) energy passing.

As for questioning the status quo, I will not so easily lay it down. For it was the status quo, the establishment that punctured Jesus’ body. Liberation theology teaches me to remain angry about injustices. Do underprivileged women without insurance have mammograms and biopsies? Are overly prescribed mammograms and biopsies simply big business for insured women?
I don’t say these things lightly because I understand that early detection does save lives, but HOW early? What’s really happening when 80% of the women undergoing biopsies are benign cases?
So, I will carry my scar as a reminder of becoming and changing each day into a new thing, responding to the natural rhythms of the Spirit. The scar will be a reminder to question, and challenge the ordinary state of affairs.
He is risen, WE are all risen, indeed!


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